When Two Become One

It's been a long time since I've written but tonight is a good occassion. I feel something
has finally come to pass in my life talked about long ago. I remember some of the
things taught to me in that garden so often in my thoughts. Grandpa used to warn me
that "you must live and fight as one or you will die as two."

I also remember these words again during my times of darkness. I was so hollow and
full or anger and rage then, but apart of me wanted to make people laugh. I felt hurt and wanted
others to understand my pain, and yet also wanted to do something great to validate my
existance. I could always feel that there were two separate forces pulling at me from both
directions inside me. One seeking glory and the other honor. Those words Grandpa told me
before his death was that "no longer will you be undone, for now two hearts shall beat as one."

To be as one......

After suffering my heart breaking, this great divide in me further widened. The side seeking
glory changed and morphed into something quiet different. In the Storm King poems I wrote after
Grandpa died, this side of me was named Xavier. The other side seeking honor was named
Thorkin. Thorkin was driven deep inside me for the longest time and only Xavier manifested
most of the time. I believe this is something all of us have. We all have the same sides to us
but what matters is which side you feed. I chose to feed Xavier and he grew strong and Thorkin
grew weak and quiet. It's what you choose to do that make you who you are not what you can
do.

Anyways, after Grandpa died, Thorkin came back and the Light returned. Now, after several
years of wrestling with everything emotionally and finding outstanding friends to heal me....
I am now one. No more quarreling storms or hazardous realms to conquer. There is now peace
in the mountains and in the valleys.....and love has truly conquored all.

Now, I have the glory of having so many people care about me and I have the honor of making
them proud every day.

Thank you to all of them. My special bondeds and friends. I could never have done it without
you! DM is a magical place.

-Thork